As a young teenage in this whole new world, sometimes I should be more active than the others. In case of developing my own self into someone that is much and much better, I should try to always be the best. But, what happens when I don’t even have the urge for it?

People always say that we have to run as fast as we can, we have to talk as much as we have to, we have to earn as what everybody else’s expected. Oh well, what else can I do when I become truly hormonal? It’s such a normal thing for a teenage girl for me. No one can blame me for that.

It’s such a weakness that every girl and women have that they can’t control their body when their feelings have control their brain. It’s just like a formula isn’t it? BODY + BRAIN = GOLD … BODY + BRAIN + FEELINGS = TRASH. Okay, now I become not just and idealistic but also liberalist girl. I like it much :)

Much people don’t like the way I am now, they think that I’m too relaxed in facing something. Well guys, I just don’t have much urge to do it. I don’t want to be like what I used to be, because people tend to use me when I was having s great urge in doing something..

I have a very simple intention of becoming like now, I don’t want to be used anymore. Somehow, some people tend to use me from the way I am and I’m so sick of it. Sorry for being like a painass nowadays *wink

Posted by NINIS aka Merilyn Rose who’s changing